Then There’s That God Awful Sound

Guys I have to be quick. I promised myself that I would start studying at 9 and there are only three minutes left. But here i am because, like, fuck, it’s only been a gajillion days since a last post. So where’ve I been? At work. Mostly. Worked a 32 hour shift from Saturday 10am to Sunday 5pm. It sucked. Balls. But it had to be done. So Sunday and Monday were spent sleeeeeeeping until I had to go back to work Monday night. Tuesday was spent sleeeeeping until I convinced myself that the the midterms I had in two days (i.e., Thursday i.e., today) would not write/study for themselves. And of course, I procrastinated like a champ because it’s just so much easier to laze on a sofa with Boss than to actually study for two hours. Then yesterday was class + studying + contemplating suicide + contemplating how fast I could get online and drop these courses. Fuck. I hate midterms. One I have today (Youth Justice) is one question. There are like 300 pages of reading and five+ lectures, and you’re asking ONE question??? Not even a ‘choose 1/5 and answer.’ There is way too much material to single out one fucking question. I hate that shit.

Thankfully, a friend took my shift last night or I would have seriously had to beat someone up. I was close to doing that last night. PS, familia? In case you’re wondering why I was such a frigid bitch after 5pm, it’s because I had two midterms coming up and the six of you couldn’t help but scream, all the fucking time. You screamed at Boss. At the television. At one another. Just screamed. Spoke loudly. Sang. Danced. I don’t think you could have been any more annoying than you were last night. And the kicker? There is no where to escape to. I thought about going to Timmy’s but there isn’t wifi or an outlet for Ivan. I thought about going to second cup but it closes at 11. I thought about going to the library but I’d for sure be up all night. I was so desperate for just an ounce of silence that I would have chopped off my ears had I an instrument that was sharp enough. I would have studied in the damn bathroom. I need to escape. Just for a little while. When these midterms are over, I need to crawl in a hole and just be alone. I can’t take the questions. I need silence, tranquility, calmness. My mind needs these things and I cannot find them at home. I mean really now, who watches television that loud? No one. In fact, the neighbours don’t even need television because they’re listening to whatever we’re watching. And who gets into the same fight over who will make a sheesh every single night, and then when each person walks in the house there’s this god awful Baaaassssssooooooooo and it gets really high pitched in the end. Then everyone is sick. So there’s this coughing severe hacking coming from each side of me. And then my ass hurts. So bad from sitting for 8+ consecutive hours. I need a standing desk—like one I can wrap around my neck maybe and balance Ivan on my chest and walk around and do work that way.

Okay. There it is. It’s out of my system. It’s 9:07. I lied. Again. I need to Study.

I have a new segment coming up you guys. Be excited, it’s a funny/interesting one. Maybe I should add to the rest. Tonight will be blognight. So much to do.

Wish me luck.